bruised toe

=.= booo. my toe utterly hurts. but....good time at jennys today. hahaha. awkward silences...hahaha. muhahaha...but it's all good i suppose.

hahaha.

*huggie wuggies* muhahaha

l8a l8a people...muhahahahah...

running home.....arms utterly hurting-,-

another time waster

My name is: SABINA
I may seem: loud, annoying, hyper, quiet, shy, stupid...
People who know me think: i am loud, annoying at times. hyper....and therefore annoying sometimes. quiet and shy at times....i am stupid because i can't think properly sometimes...
If you knew me you'd probably: laugh sooo hard you'd piss your pants...
Sometimes I feel: like i don't deserve a tomorrow
My days are pretty: when i laugh really hard because people can make me smile...
Yesterday: i was thinking about everything
In the morning I: woozily get up and brush teeth and do morning routinely stuff
I like to sleep: when i'm tired and exhausted...
If I could be doing anything right now I would be: talking on the phone with certain people/ my friends
Money is: something that corrupts the purest of souls
One thing I don't have that I wish I did is: patience
One thing I have that I wish I didn't is: dunno
All you need is: GOD
All I need is: GOD
If I had one wish it would be: for this world to love each other more often
When I look in the mirror I see: me with super bags...
Love is: patient, kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
If I could see one person right now it would be: briboi or cat
Something I want but I don't really need is: hm....
I live for: GOD, myself, family, friends
I am afraid of: alot of things....
It makes me angry when: people are just ignorant and rude.... and crude...
I dream about: hahah...alot of things...
I daydream about: egh....mostly situations that would never happen...

1 Year Ago, I...:
o1. was completely depressed
o2. was suicidal
o3. was doing horribly in grade 11 math
o4. was taking japanese class
o5. shaved my hair for cancer...society...


2 Years Ago, I...:
o1. i had just broke up....a month and a bit...
o2. started skipping days of school weeks on end
o3. was depressed
o4. planned suicide attempts
o5. was baptized


Yesterday I:
o1. couldn't stop thinking about grad/prom
o2. watched csi
o3. went to kfc with matt and ben, and watched ben eat his lunch
o4. designed a character for matt, since i'm creative but can't draw for beans...
o5. sat on the swing and took a long walk around the heights for about 2 hours...

Today, I:
o1. sat in the park with matt for an hour
o2. went to jennys and had a few sips of beer....
o3. cried because of parental arguments
o4. ran from jennys house all the way back to my house
o5. gave a few massages for the gang....now knuckles hurting=.=


Five Songs I Know All the Words To, Even Without the Music:
o1. egh...sorry....i dunno any songs....
o2.
o3.
o4.
o5.

Five Things I Would buy With $100,000:
o1. a lap top
o2. a new wardrobe
o3. and stuff my friends wanted.....and still have money to buy bonds?
o4.
o5.

Five Bands You've been listening to Lately:
o1. egh.....dunno...dun really listen to bands persay....
o2.
o3.
o4.
o5.

Top Five Locations I'd Like To Run Away To:
o1. if i run away...it's just to get away from here...so n e where away from here...that's all...
o2.
o3.
o4.
o5.

random survey

muhahaha.....random survey because me bored...numbers...are completely messed up....

1. Full name: Sabina Kam Yan Tsang
2. Nicknames: Sabby. Sabz, Sabbers, Subbers,
3. Age: 17? i think?
4. Height: 5'4-5'4
5. Hair: mid length, side bangs, dark dark brown
6. Siblings: 1 older sista
7. Do u like to sing in the shower? yupz. for surez!
8. Do u like to sing? yupz yupz! for surez!
9. Birthday: August 12th
10. Sign: Leo
12. Sex: Female
13. Righty or lefty: ambidextrious
14. What do you want in a relationship most: trust, understanding, loyalty, compassion, sympathy, patience, and love
15. Have you ever cheated? never have, never will.
16. Marital status: Singo
17. Do you have a car? muhahah, i have my parents. but....hopefully, in second year of uni...me get my car!
18. What kinda car do you have? i have a hyundai accent '98.....muhahahaha....hi-un-die. not hun-day...

FAVORITE

19. Movie: egh.....dunno
20. Song: i have a few...tooo many to name...
25. Food: dunno
26. Number: 13
27. Cartoon: iunno....simpsons?
28. Disney Character: Belle from beauty and the beast
29. Color: to wear=black, but normally blue
30. Do you plan on having kids? yup yup
33. Get married? i do not believe in sex before marriage...so if i want kids, i'll be married...duh!
34. Would you have kids before marriage? as i said above...NO!
35. Do u have a b/f or g/f: not now...
37. Do you have a crush: i don't like to crush....

EITHER-OR (PICK WHICH ONE YOU PREFER)

38. Music/TV: MUSIC on TV!!! hahaha
40. Green/Blue: TURQUOISE! muhahahah
41. Pink/Purple: egh...neither
42. Summer/Winter: both
43. Night/Day: both, just not the afternoon
44. Hangin Out/Chillin: ain't they the same thing??!?!?
45. Dopey/Funny: a dopey funny
46. You know I'm around when you hear: *very loud asian talk in the halls*
47. What school do u go to? OTHS!
49. What's a major turn on for you? being genuine
50. How far would you go on a first date: dunno...depend on how well i know the person...

FRIENDS

51. Most blonde: egh....all my friend are pretty blond sometimes...hahahaha
52. Nicest: egh...dunno....all my friends are the biggest sweethearts ever
53. Funniest: hahaha...all my friends can make me laugh n e time...
54. Tallest: dunno...haven't measured them all...if they are all taller then me, they are tall...hahahah so yeah...
55. Best Personality: can't judge this...everyone is different and unique
56. Which people do you trust and are open with the most?: well egh....you will know who you are if you are one of those people...
57. Do you believe in soul mates? yupz yupz
58. Is it right to flirt if you have a bf or gf? i don't know how to flirt....but yeah...i think it's kinda wrong...

OTHER RANDOM QUESTIONS

59. What was the last thing you cried over or got teary about? my parents arguing, today....
60. What's something about guys and girls that you dont understand?: people in general, why is it that sensitivity is preverted into weakness?
62. What's one thing you can't live without?: GOD
63. Love or Lust: Love
64. Silver or gold: white gold, if not, silver
65. Diamond or pearl: both are gorgeous
66. Sunset or sunrise: both are the beauty of GOD....how can i choose?
67. Have you ever gone skinny-dipping?: hahaha, maybe in my imagination....hahaha
68. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: keke^^:D:P *blushes* yeah....*blushes*
69. Do you have any piercings: nopez....
70. What color underpants are you wearing right now: hahaha, you really wanna know?!?!? hahaha....you'll just haveta come and pants me thenXP
71. What song are u listening to right now? egh...theme song of inuyasha....cause it's playing on tv in the background....
72. Where would you want to go on your hunnymoon: doesn't matter, as long as i'm with the person i love
73. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? hahaha, at the present moment....i honestly don't know....i'm utterly confused...hahahah
74. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?: smile and eyes....
75. What is your favourite sport? badminton....volleyball, basketball....egh...dunno...there are more...
76. What makes you happy? hahaha....alot of things...
77. What's the next cd/s you're gonna get? dunno....
78. Do u wear contacts or glasses? hope to get contacts for grad....
79. What's the best advice given to you? wow...i dunno....alot of people have given me advice lor...
80. Have u ever won any special awards? no, i'm pretty much tooo average to get any special awards
81. What are your goals in life? dunno....being happy?
82. Do you like Funny or Scary movies better? depends who i'm with...
83. On the phone or in person? depends when, where and to who...
84. Hugs or kisses? hahah...hugs....they are more satisfying...hahaha
85. What song seems to reflect you the most? dunno...
86. If you died tomorrow who would you leave everything you own to? dunno...all my things belong to my parents because they got it for me....plus, my advice and wisdom would all belong to GOD...and everything else would just be a memory...

MORE RANDOM QUESTIONS

87. Do u have any enemies? hope not
88. Would you rather be rich or famous? neither....rich and fame corrupts the soul...
89. What time is it in Albania now? bleh....i'm not in albania...don't know, don't care...
90. Have you ever been in love? yes
91. Have you ever met santa? no such a thing...
92. If E.T. knocked on your door holding up a peace sign and asked you to use your phone what would you do? ahhhh....i wouldn't open it....et is totally scary...
93. Do u have any pets? yupperz!
94. What do you see yourself as in 10 years?: working in a job that is dead end...and taking night courses...
95. Last time you were stressed: egh...you're chemically stressed internally every moment....
96. Are you an alcoholic? i do drink, but i don't like beer....
97. Who sent this to you? no one, stole it off of kaitlyn's site....
98. What do you think of this person: kaitlyn's a quite one, but hyper at times...not a morning person...and a sweetie...
99. Do you want your friends to write back?: yupz yupz...why wouldn't i?

happier moments

hahahaha. well on to happier moments of the day.

hahaha. well....hahaha. well i drove matt home today. well technically to my house and then we went to the park together and just sat on the swings for an hour. hahaha.

he feels weird around my parents because he is afraid that my parents would hate him. hahaha. wonder if he understands how i feel cause i was kinda somewhat hated for that little period and kinda feel like i amXSXSXS.

hahaha.....wow, i'm fat...hahaha. i can sit on the baby swing without feeling pain. hahaha. oh that is great. hahaha. seee....i am fat....hahha. i have alot of ass and leg insolation. hahaha.

hahaha. i don't know why.....but everytime it's just him and i....i always bring up prom...hahaha. well actually, these past like 3 or 4 days i haven't gotten it off my mind, just that i talked about it excessively ...gotsta stop talking about grad.....sooo excited about it. ahhhhh!!!! sooo cute...technically, got asked again...for his own reassurance and confirmation to something i knew i was going to. hahaha. yupz yupz. hahahaha. all good. all happy. hahahaha. *smiles smiles*

grrrrr....is it that obvious?!?!? arg=.= bleh.....fine....maybe it is=.= bleh....is it as obvious to him as it is to everyone else around him?=.= bleh....

someone, take me away...

ah......i want to run away. my parents are scaring me. ah. i swear, it's the work of the devil. ah. they always blame me for having attitude towards them. sighs. maybe it's my fault that i don't talk to them. sighs sighs. from now on, i will pray for the strength to learn to communicate to them better. from now on, i will teach myself, with the help of GOD, that i will not hide much about myself away from them. from now on, everytime i give my parents attitude, inside....i'll give myself a few punches.

there has been a problem with communication in my family for more than just this one time. but this time, it's not my fault. sighs sighs. can someone give me a purpose to leave my house. i'm in the basement and shaking from the cold and fear. ah. what happens if they start to attack me? ah.

all my life, i've never been taught to communicate how i feel. all my life, i have not had good role models to communicate the way i feel. all my life, when people wanted a message across in the family, we'd all just yell at each other. and apprently, i've been yelling at everyone in my life.

my daddy's driven off, and my mommy is going to chase after him. i'm afraid...just plain afraid....