music

keke^^:D:P music makes someone happy, sad, and everything in between. if it's so powerful, can music heal?

meh....

i suppose mood is very important....when you feel upset...it seems like everything is falling apart. but i suppose the truth isn't in this statement. everything is a waking disaster every day. it's just that when you wake up upset, you become even more realistic and aware and allow everything to affect you in a way that you wouldn't allow when you are happy. meh......and so i walk this little way in my life knowing that everything is always about to crumble and break....but for now....i have the strength to withstand it from killing me.

oh yes.....i found like a step counter in my sister's dorm room....and she gave it to me....and i tend to keep it....muhaha......rather fun i suppose.....i'm gonna count all the steps i walk a day now i suppose...and look like an idiot with a kellogg's step counter on my belt loop....but you know what?!?!? i've been teased enough over the time as a kid that i'm perfectly fine even though i'll still get angry.

i am patient to some extent. well maybe not patient....but have decency. i mean....i hear this white ass chick named mandy every day laugh at the way i am and the way i dress and the way everything in my life is "supposed" to be according to her......and well.....i hear this every day for one semester so far.....if i was n e crueler and unafraid of the consequences of disrupting the class.....i would have already turned around, and then started yelling at her not giving her n e face and loosing mine in the process. but i am human, and just because other's can't see what their words are doing on others.....i know how it feels and i will try not to tease and laugh unless it's a consentual joke.

dunno.....feels like everything in my life is about to go wrong.....maybe it's because of school and exams....no...it's not probably, it's most definately it.....but i'll be praying....nothing else i can do.....