last night

kekek^^:d:P well just say that i didn't go home till 9.

yeah....9's my curfew on a school night, but that's really acceptable to my standards. i still want to come home and have time to like study so yeah. plus, nine is like the time my daddy always wants me home even though it's weekends. blah. he was never this uptight with my sister when she was my age, what the hell makes me sooo different from my sister when it comes to curfews?!?!?

args args. rather hate my daddy sometimes. but that's normal i suppose. but that's only cause we always have our disagreements all the time. because he thinks i should be more "traditional" like my sister. args....my ass, my sister's traditional? "yao been yut fut hai zing tong ar?!?!?" fucking aye. everyone's out to get me.

meh.....stupid school....stupid dreams.....stupid me. args args.

i think i know why i like to listen to my music all the time. cause when i'm listening to music, i can forget about everything else around me and just sit there and thinka bout me. everyone needs their outputs of course. people need to be alone sometimes. people sometimes haveta be selfish and think only about themself.

i do love myself. but i still think my friends or those in my life worth more than myself. but then again, that's cause i don't really think highly of myself, but that doesn't mean i don't love myself, nor does it mean i love myself less than others. i love everyone that's in my life equal. even an acquaintance....but people just don't see it my way and they think my way of thinking is "wrong".....but i'm stubborn, and i don't really think it's wrong as long as i can live with it myself.

my dad thinks i'm useless. am i a good for nothing brat????