hey hey....guess what?!?! i can whisper now!!! yeah yeah!!! it's such an accomplishment for me. i mean.
"sai sang ha hai."<------canto i have never been able to do that before in my life. so yeah. i suppose all i haveta do now is work on my patience. yeah....i don't have much of it anymore because i got too fed up and got pissed off at everyone and everything. yeah. weird. but meh. not that bad i suppose.

hm.....i'm going to have to knock out my jaw....args args....sooo evil isn't it? i'm starting to get headaches every sooo often. i think it's because my lower jaw is starting to grow again. sighs sighs. i don't want my kids to go through what i'm going through now...

honestly, is there an age limit for love? i don't think there is a minimum....it just depends on how mature the person's mind set is.

sighs sighs. i don't know.....ken seems sooo lonely these days. he feels as if there is no one out there for him. sighs sighs. i hope he understands that i didn't lie to him about not having a website. i just don't think that my thought pagie is a website. i hope that he won't think that cat is lying. so yeah. because she called my thought pagie a website, it's just that i didn't think it was a website. stupid misunderstanding. hope he'll forgive me. hm. i'll take him to go sumwhere. he seems to feel as if he has no friends here. i suppose that's why he wants to go back. he wants to be where he knows and feels that he has friends. i suppose i'll take up swimming? if he likes swimming so much....i may as well learn to like it just so that he won't feel alone. args. but i'd rather stay on land.....i like volley ball and b-ball sooo much more than swimming. blah......don't know what to do with this kid. i can't help him unless he wants help. but i'll still try....

as of bri....i don't know what's going on in his mind anymore. i don't think i have the right to know n e more. i'm getting fed up of trying to talk to the fellow, but i know if i stop trying, everything'll just fall apart. and i'd rather have myself exhausted of trying than knowing that i didn't do enough.
sighs sighs....my heart is crying every night over this....but there are also still smiles there. and i still feel loved. i have a real issue of being alone.

honestly....i do. and i know this because i cannot live a day without calling someone. i can't live without a day without seeing one of my friends. i cannot live without a book or without the tv, or without the pc. i cannot live alone with just me in my world. but many people are like this i know. but it doesn't make it right just to go and find love because you don't want to be alone. you must honestly find love because you want to love someone and that you do love that someone you've found.

sorry val, but i think your friend marco is like a total anal ass. he doesn't understand why people have gfs/bfs.....i used to think the way he does....but honestly.....i find that sometimes, we are meant to find the wrong person so we'll find the right one and know how to treat him/her. i really haveta have a talking with this anal friend of yours. don't mean to sound harsh or rude, but he sound sooo anal about everything. he also seems to be that type to twist people's words and misinterpret what people say to what he wants to hear. but that's just my opinion of this guy i haven't met. maybe it would be diff if i meet him.