sad how many things work out to be the way that they do.

hm. i don't know....but some reason.....i think i am not doing n e thing for my birthday

autie esther is coming back from malaysia on like wednesday or thursday. honestly......aunti esther is like a second mother. most friendly parent besides my own mother and father that i listen to. i mean, i listen to every other elder out of respect, but i really do take auntie esther's words to my heart because she's one of those people that take nothing from you and always give as much as she can offer. it's sad how many people have turned against her for this very reason. people of this world can't really understand the effects of love. out of all parents, auntie esther is one of those adults i understand alot. yes, she's almost like a half century older than i, but i still understand her. it's weird, but i think it's just because i've grown up in a loving family that i understand her mentality.

weird how people in this world mistake genuine love for hidden motives. funny how this world uses everyone and everything for it's own better achievement. it's strange how many people want love, but when it's at their door they cannot accept it because they don't understand it.

all this is not new. all this is the truth of this world, but luckily, my place does not reside here.