keke^^:D:P well now....i wanna start a band...sighs....but it's no fun when you only know that you yourself want to start a band...and none of the friends you have no are interested at all....plus....it just wouldn't work....going to uni....just wouldn't work i suppose....
but....i suppose....a dream of mine is to write some worship song that people around the world could sing. wouldn't that just be sooo magnificant? but i mean....of course the praise doesn't go to me....all the glory goes back to GOD. but....i'm not musically inclined enough to actually write my own music even if i could write my own lyrics. sighs.....
it sucks that in this world....i have searched over and over again to find something that i am good at. sighs sighs. and apparently.....everyone has a gift that they are more talented in the things that they do....but for me....why can't i find this? i feel sooo odd and different than everyone. everyone has something that they are good at. and to me....i just seem to get by life being average all my life. sighs sighs. it's really really sad....i mean....i have qualities that i know most people don't have or just not as strong in...but maybe that just comes with the way i am....when i set my mind to something...i am stubborn, but still listening for you to disprove my opinion. but possessing qualities isn't a skill...or a talent for that matter. possessing qualities is simply just what it is.....quality and characteristics...sighs sighs. but...there's nothing to be sad about this i suppose...it's just what i will use to shine and demonstrate the glory of GOD....yupz yupz. since i still haven't found what i am gifted in....i simply am just gonna be and continue being. and along the lines of being, shining a light into the dark. whether or not i will be understood or not....i can only shine. i cannot let the darkness overcome me.
life can only be understood by looking forward and above.
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