Hope To Go Out Tonight

well rache like told me that she may be going out to like shop for school again. keke^^:d:P she's a sweet lil girl with her own lil problems. sighs sighs. i really like don't like the fact that i've written a blog to her......i didn't mean to sound so mean. when i was writing those thoughts.....i really didn't see how they could affect n e one.....i was more like....oh....no one cares aboutme.....see my point kind of thing. blah. but i know there are those that care. the pc is like all i do all day now because summer is about to end and no one has plan to go n e where. blah. not everyone will have the time to sit in front of a pc and wait for someone to invite them somewhere. the problem with me is when someone invites me sumwhere, i don't really want to go. but once the date is passed, i really wished i could have gone and didn't say no. but it's because i honestly didn't feel like doing n e thing at the time that makes me upset. args args.

i think i shall go to the gym again today. honestly, i am way tooo bored at home. eveyrone's like, why don't you just go out? and i will always ask them.....if not yell at them.....with whom am i going to go out with? with whom will ask me to go out with them? with whom would actually go out with me so that well.....i won't be alone? no one.....they don't get the hint. args.

blah....cat's coming home in about like 2 to 3 hours time! keke^^:D:P sighs......this sux......i have nohting to do.....args.....i miss school, but i hate school.

why do i feel sooo unloved even though my mother's like......see, i work afternoons, but i ain't sooo bored with you around, but once school starts....i'll be depressed. i mean...it's not sumthing to be happy about....but she said it....and it should make me feel special even if time being....but it doesn't. i'm like feeling like trash today. sighs sighs. i'm bored beyond my witts. no one's called me. no one's messaged me. but at least i know if i call someone, they'll talk.. when i message someone, they message me back at least. blah. i'm bored....saving me from this living nightmare!