Monday, August 18, 2003

kinda funnay....very funnay......u answered all but da one about flirting....keke^^XD. soooo funnay.....hehehe=>:D well u always reply my entries and i reply to urs.....it's funnay sumhow....

well dere would neva haveta be sorry if everyone wuz perfect, but u ain't.....but u noe....da word sorry just because i's overused doesn't mean dat it doesn't come from da heart.....for meh.....if i wuzn't really sorry at all.....i wouldn't say it at all....even if i was in da principle's office and dey were forcing meh. i'm just dat type of person.....i dun like saying things i dun mean.....even doe i joke around saying stupid stuff all da time.....which i noe dey noe i'm just being stupid. hehehe=>:D but not everyone's like meh.....den no one would actually say sorry even if i do say sorry when i do things wrong. the word sorry kinda like gives comfort if you no what i mean....like da word or phrase, i love you.....i'll admit....it's overused..........rememba da qualities of love.....love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy, it does not boast. it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails....1 corinthians 13:4-8a. u noe......when u say i love you, many, not most actually mean it......but sum part in one another's lyphe....dey just dun feel as if dey should commit to one another. what pisses meh off isn't hearing it....but hearing it and being broken....yeah...it's happened tons of times with meh.....but yet.....i've kinda given up on da idea now....i'll just let people come to conclusions......sighs sighs. sure is a lonely path sumtimes....being alone....alone again for another time in my lyphe.....but i suppose it's only a fear dat i shall conquer because GOD is my strength....even doe sumtimes i wear it out plain through......sighs.

well let's see dis....if you started blaming GOD for one thing, u can just go and start blaming GOD for everything....but ultimately, da choice is urs......and ultimately, all da power of choice is with you and is urs, because dat is what and who GOD is, da one who creates those choices for you and allows you to choose for urself. we are like dose choose ur own adventure novels.....u wanna live at the very end knowing that sumwhere along da way u will die......but one thing is different....unlike da novel....in lyphe, u cannot go bak......u must move forward even doe u seem to have made a mistake....being brought closer isn't for him to make you become closer, but it's for you to choose to become closer.....really.....in lyphe.....i really believe everything's a choice....hasn't n e one eva told ya dat well.....da greatest power GOD gave us wuz da power of CHOICE?!?!?!? yeah....many people dun undastand dat......but to meh.....i do.....lookie here for an example......okayz.....dere dis lil kid da normally pisses da crap outta meh.....den well.....i choose not to loose my temper.....and lookie and beholdie......i'm not loosing my temper even doe he's pissing da crap outta meh. hehehehe=>:D stupid example....but it's a personal one......hehehe=>:D so like everything else....everything's just a choice.....ultimately GOD can try to alter ur choice, but if ur stubborn and unwilling to change...den well....u'll choose da wrong choice......but if ur sensitive to GOD's teaching and such....u will fall in no such of a pit....

yeah....let da dead worry for da dead....well u noe.....i wouldn't wanna rot sumwhere....but i would be dead n e ways....so basically i'm planning my own funeral....only being well.....i believe i should, and not sumone else.....i've written my will.....i've written my funeral arrangements....wuz gonna write what should be said at a funeral, but den i noticed...dat's going a bit ova board....i'll just write what i'll have on my grave stone....even doe i wanna be like made into ash....i think dat's da best way....lookie here......from dust u were made, and dust u shall return. hehehe=>:D

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