studying

should be studying. sighs....

i think i'm fine for calc. i'll prolly prove myself wrong though. as usual, it's rather sad. yeah, everyone thinks i'm rather pessimistic when it comes to school. that's because i feel like such a failure. yeah, i complain about school sooo much, and really, it's the only place that's keeping me safe really.

sighs sighs. i really must pray for pat.....his broken arm is like breaking my heart. sighs sighs.

gotsta pray that i will actually pass my calc test. i don't understand why i can do all the hmwk, but when the test comes i suck sooo bad. sighs sighs. i prolly just need to try alot harder so i won't break my tutor's heart. and importantly, break my parent's heart for pouring money into this investment, but for me to be unable to achieve it would be worst! sighs....i don't understand why i do sooo horribly.

sighs....worrying for pat now. hope he's safe....hope his arm heals properly. sighs....