frustrated......soo frustrated with myself. i don't understand myself. why??? why?!?!? why?!?!? arg!!!! soo confused....my world is falling apart.....no on reads or at least understands my thoughts.....no one wants to understand.

fuzzy and warm....arg!!!! frustration!!!! frustration.....i want it all to go away......arg!!!!

i noe nothing....nothing at all.....well i wish to stop writing now.....too frustrated to straighten my thoughts......i once gave out my heart to the world....time and time again i got hurt.......i let it go...and continued loving.....but now....as i stand, feeling completely naked and alone, i am unable to love again. i hate. i hate with a passion....a passion to hate. i enjoy nothing, not at all. i wish life would end, but then i would have lived pointlessly. i don't have an aim, but that does not mean i am pointless. sighs....i'm loosing myself. the person i thought i wuz, i am no longer. i thought i wuz strong, but i'm extremely weak. i thought i could conquer da world, but yet again i'm unable to even conquer myself. sighs......

i noe i'm loved.....i noe i am.....oh wellz......dere are still those who care.....
i sometimes wish da world would leave meh alone....but sometimes, i wish everyone would notice meh....
why do i feel such controversial feelings?
why?!?!!? why is the world sooo cruel??? why am i soo cruel to myself?!?!? why is everyone so cruel, but so sympathetic???? arg!!!!