man, my posts are sooo infrequent now. but i guess since i ain't as unhappy as i wuz a few weeks ago, i dun have much to write n e more. okayz....i'm finished reading a classic. it's called like the catcher in the rye, by like jd salinger? yeah. it is. well i guess dat guy is sorta like meh. he thinks everything or at least everyone is fake and phony. i don't really think everything is fake, but rite now...as i see everything, everything is hiding behind something. sighs. i don't get it. i thought i wuz over this stage in my lyphe a few years ago. what de hell is wrong wit meh now? sighs??? i have no clue. now days....my heart is always yearning for more. is it just because i'm used to having someone there for me? wait.....i still have peeps dere for meh. sighs.....lyphe sucks some ass....and it sure bites! oh wellz.....meh like totally tired....kinda like sad....sorta missing everyone and everything.....but i'll get over it....like everything else dat passes in my lyphe.
i will move on. i will be happy. i will be independant! i will survive! who says a gurl hasta rely on peeps? who says a gurl isn't just or even more stronger den a guy? who says i can't? well......u underestimate urself and others if u say u can't. i'm very pessimistic, but as the days go by.....i'm learning. learning to be more happy, to think happier thoughts, to just try to walk in a happier path. sounds easy to u dun it??? well when ur in da middle of a situation dat could not have been avoided.....it's kinda hard. well dere are many things i could have done to not set up for a fall....but i guess da padding which i feel upon wuz just a very hard matress. i have no clue......i wanna express my thoughts. i wanna get all dis sh!+ outta meh. but i can't....why? i have no clue. why??? because i'm just a lost and confused lil gurly dat well....likes to talk.....oh yeah....i'm sorry if i ever piss da shit outta ya cause i'm down....or i'm always angry....or when i'm always swearing at u.....i'm sooo sorry.....u noe i still love ya....hehehe=>:D hugs and kisses peeps....