skool.....friends....acceptance......family.....love.....emotions.....
as a person of teen age all these q's always plague my mind....
well firstly....i haveta say thanx to all my friends dat i noe out dere and all dat have had an invisible hand dat touched my heart that hasn't known it....
it's hard being my friend. i noe it is....cause i would drive myself insane.....which i do....but dat ain't da point... it's hard being there for a person that falls into depression in and out every minute...
for those who have shown meh endless love and caring through the rough times and given me their undivided attention, thanx soo much. i can't promise that i won't fall into another depression....i won't even promise you i will stay happy....firstly....i noe it'll be pointless because i can't even keep it for myself. but either way....thanx peeps
there are those who are unable to show meh the affections that i would wish to see from my friends or family, but in everyway, i noe u still care. just by looking through ur eyes, even if it were expressionless.....i noe deep down inside u care at least enuff to stay around. everyone may say i'm foolish. everyone mite say dat i'm just immature.....but well if i am....i'm sorry i am. i still like to think that i'll grow outta these things. i'm foolish for letting myself fall, setting myself up.....but u noe....dose are da mistakes i call experiences. not very pleasant experiences, but surely, i can move on.
to me, i still say that love is a choice. a choice based on emotions. yes....emotions don't last forever...but if u make a commitment into making them last, they surely do. hahaha=.:D as i think of how stupid i am, i really realize dat i'm just a thinker who thinks alot of the ideas i have are original, but i noe dey ain't. everyone goes through this stage whatever age they may be. some just less serious than others. if i truly wanted to move on, i would be able to....so i may be saying dat i wish to move on, but den again, i guess deep down inside i noe i don't. i've had too many good times and i'm unwilling to let go. maybe that's my fault. i can forgive someone or something for the actions done towards meh, but i never truly forget. i guess that defeats the whole point of forgiveness. i must be willing to change and forget to forgive dun i? well whatever it may be, no one really reads my thoughts, and if dey do, dey dun tell meh, so whatever....i will live on not knowing....i haveta go now....but either way....if ur one of those peeps dat are feeling totally depressed rite now, before reading these thoughts or after reading these thoughts....u noe, GOD will ALWAYS LOVE U...and accept u.......may GOD BLESS UR SOUL!!!!