do u ever notice dat when u do sumthing too much that well.....u do get sick of it.....no matter how good that thing is.....or how entertaining it is. things just become predictable......

it's not that u get urself into things when uknow more....it's that u are subconciously willing to take the consequence for knowing.... and yeah...it does cause more problems...maybe not.....but whateva....not too bad in the end...

yeah...meh and my crude jokes aye?!?!?!? oh shut up!!! hahaha=>:D well u see....in da same sense...if everyone were like my family....den it would be hard to open up myself...those that i'm supposed to be very close with...instead i run away.....i'm afraid.....those that i shouldn't be close to....well i purposely befriend them...why??? because well.....no one wants to be their friend for a reason...i just wanna find it out...but also.....i hate to be the one outta the crowd....so i purposely include em in....no matter how much i dislike their company.

whao....i'm actually really surprised....i asked u dat question quite a long time ago....and yet u remembered!!!! whoa....amazing......hahaha=>:D u noe....i finally understand why my parents call meh cold....but well.....if dey call dat cold...den dere kinda living on a world of their own....u noe why my parents call meh cold??? they say that only cause i dun talk to them about everything.....and dat i'm always tired and not smiling because i'm tired. sooo whack....yeah....i'm sooo cold......i dun like to be the one initiating all the chit chat u noe.....but u notice what???? i am normally the one who does when talking on the phone, or with a group of friends....but sumtimes.....i wish others would just swoop meh off my feet and then prop meh bak right on my feet. but i seem to be the one doing all the swooping sumtimes.

i've been the kid that's been ignored and neglected...but i've been the kid that's been the center of attention. i noe what true love is....it's just a state that is unattainable...it's sumthing that's achieved, not to grab at. sadness......hahaha=>:D da term ur looking for is i dunno how to use the sadness properly......i noe how it feels to be truly sad.....to fall into a pit and feel as if no one is there......that is what sadness is....then fear adds onto that sadness....and that's when the walls of the pit seems to be closing in on u.....that's what fear is....but i noe how to use fear....not sadness....

whatever....i do respond to ur lil thoughts....dunno why....i just do.....i respond to everyone's thoughts....i dunno why.....but i do.....it's a natural reflex i have....when someone's in need....i dun care at what cost, but i will help and try to make things betta....well l8a yo.....wish more people read my thoughts....maybe den sum people would understand more....or maybe get more confused....so yeah...l8a