i haven't written a thought for a long time now. hahaha=>:D but you think i need to since i am buzy either sleeping or out? i'm not too well now days, but hey....dat dun mean n e thing. haven't i already told you peeps dat i am sick.....i mean....maybe mentally which i shouldn't be..... but i am physically sick.....i just dun seem to absorb the nutrients i eat from my foods and well.....guess what??? i pay for it. but i dun mind......in a way...dat's just lyphe....that's how things are thrown at meh. sometimes it hard to accept that people hate meh and others just forget about meh....but i'm sure....they still remember meh in some very vague image. hahaha=>:D i don't need to be constantly reminded of the lyphe i have.....everyone already does that. i don't nee to be constantly thanked. i'm just happy being at the time.....and i dunno.....those that accept too easily sometimes have a harder time in lyphe accepting themselves...but hey....in the end....i like it that way

lyphe can't always be easy......lyphe is a journey where each and every question is answered by yes i do and no i do not.....there is also another option....to come bak to the same question later.....but each of the question is the same..... do you accept the matter???? if yes....you'd be willing to accept, move on, struggle a tiny bit, and work towards what you have accpeted....if no....then u struggle enuff to cause more pain, don't move on quickly enuff, and u lead to more questions of accpetance. hahaha=>:D that's the thing about lyphe....it always wants the answer to be a yes....cause what has happened cannot be changed...cause you are not GOD, u will never be. NO MATTER HOW YOU PLAY AND ACT AS GOD BY CLONING OR WHAT NOT, YOU WILL NEVER BE!!!~~^^.

i'm not too philosophical....i don't wish to be....i just observe enuff to draw conclusions....yet i still noe i shall not be too absolute......i finally noe what makes a person absolute.....many with determine minds are those who are hated....what for??? because they are determined for sumthing.....and they draw everything to that one point....most of those who are extrememly determined may seem optimistic by using their pessimistic energies into constructive work.....very positive thing. but most absolute people are those who are very stubborn...actually....stubborn and being absolute are the same thing....you are unwilling to change......lyphe is not even constant cause death itself ends lyphe.....but change is constant...even after death......but death is not constant....cause it only ever happens once...but what makes it constant is that it happens to everyone...which is not the case if you actually ever flipped through the bible to read most of it.....it's quite amazing if you ask meh....

GOD proves one thing through lyphe and death.....HE's IS THE ALMIGHTY ONE WITH ALL CHOICES......and he gave use power to have limited choice, but enuff to destroy our own very being.....hahaha=>:D difficult??? ain't supposed to. i just like to stimulate mind thinking.....hahaha=>:d at least once in a while.....people don't really want to understand meh....or either that...they just find it extremely hard......but one thing is for sure....maybe i'm just too simple and people think it's complexed....yeah....i wuz watching ultimate bra.......and that movie is kinda stupid....but what made meh think is this.....maybe what we want and need is sumthing soo simple that everyone thinks there is sumthing behind the fact of what we need that causes it to be complexed. i really think that is the case......simple....i just want whatever lyphe has to offer....and that may be bad, may be good. that's why i don't rate things....i just ever say things are okay....i swear...there is never a perfect, but is almost perfect......there is nothing useless and worthless cause it wuz made or thought of from somewhere.. simple as this.....i just wanna be......and in times....it's just hard.......but what isn't rite???? so in the same way....lyphe moves on even in the best of times...and moves even more in the worst of times....just that when we are down...everything seems soo slow cause we want too rapid of results....but whatever the case......

i write because i can, i see and smell and hear cause i will.......and cry because i just can't help it. if you don't wanna see my tears....then you are willing to make urself blind. no one likes an insensitive bastard....but i still love you....and dun worry bout that......i'm talking to everyone....hahaha=>:D and you can count on me to say i love you.....cause i do mean it......but what i need to learn is not how to love n e more, but how to apply with patience and joy......