okayz, yupz yupz. muhahaha=>:D:P it's not too bad i suppose. meh sooo bored doe. sighs sighs. haven't updated my thoughts in a while now. i remember all da good times and the bad. but somehow.....all da good just doesn't weigh more den da good somehow it seems. sighs sighs. i can't help it. yupz yupz. i am no officially over both of the people i previously liked. i just can't take dis....well not over....i am officially not gonna worry or think. muhahha=>:D:P i'll just listen to patty boi. muhahaha. since brian doesn't talk to meh muchie n emore, i'll just haveta stick with my other best buddies. muahahah=>:D:P well i wouldn't say best buddies, cause u would think dat best buddies do everything together, but i don't. so whateva. hehehe=>:D:P i don't like to be the center of attention, but i like it all at da same time. muahaha=>:D:P gonna be studying supa hard dis like week. gots two tests coming up. and one, i know i'm gonna flunk cause i ain't good at math. sighs sighs. the other one english, i hate shakespear, but i do respect the way he writes. sighs sighs. u noe what i miss now? imiss da days of grade 10, what happened to that happy lil gurl i wuz? what happened to the lil girl in grade 7? or maybe that wuz the problem, i wuz da happy LIL gurl. sighs sighs. oh wellz. dat's only cause i'm not trying in skool, and i'm actually flunking my own standards. sighs sighs. i will get higher than and eighty in all my courses....just watch meh....muhahaha=>:D:P yupz yupz. sighs sighs.

i'm happy for you that u are happy now. i really don't want you to neglect meh n e more. i can't take this n e more. yeah, i know u need em. but really, do you haveta neglect the buddies u call friends? sighs sighs. what happened to what we USED to BE?!?!? i know that u are happy, i can understand that, but what happened to us? we were so close, the bestest of buddies, and yet i hurt u all the time because i just didn't think, and now that i try to be better, u just leave me? what the heck is all dis? sighs sighs. it's not just what i see. maybe i shall forever be dat gurl that will just sit in the lonely corner and like forever just deteriorate slowly. sighs sighs. sooo evil. arg. sighs sighs. wish all things coulda been da same. but what doesn't break you only makes u stronger. sighs sighs...

bessie....BESSIE!!! sighs sighs......are u sure u wanna see my yearbookie? dey all look soo ugly in my yearbook!!! arg arg.....man...i lost a few more pounds again...sighs sighs. muhahaha. ur butt wuz sooo not hanging off the piano chair...oh crap.....dat reminds meh.....i haveta practice da piano....frick it. arg. oh wellz.....i'll be good....just watch meh....muhahahahah