well let's see. everyone getting sick. and i don't think it's just the weather. but maybe it is. hm. i don't know. it gots meh thinking as of what people are. people are just people, their actions may have significant reasoning behind em or none at all. hm. boa, coming out with a new cd i suppose and hear. oh yes, jay chou came out with two new songs. hm. somewhat slow in my opinion. but i'm addicted to like techno and rave, so you shouldn't ask for my opinion. muhahaha=>:D:P

yeah, my blogger is somewhat all i have. well i let everyone read my thoughts, even if my thoughts are not very substancial with proof or whateva.

yeah, well let's say this, i'm a very bitter old hag. what would the image of meh be then? well all my lyphe, i have been unfortunate in certain life lessons. i do learn everything the hard way, in the end, it may have made meh a better person or in the end, it destroys me. i cannot and therefore, do not predict the future. yeah, matt oh's always like, gurl u are way too happy. in a sense, maybe i act like i am and i am in some way happy. but maybe i'm not. has n e one thought that loudness, smiles and an uncaring heart are only a sheild of whom i am? no one actually looks into someones eyes and see, for they are afraid of what may be noticed in the soul of the person. no one bothers to take the time to see the beauty behind the hideous. if life were of all beautiful things, then would not everyone be destroyed in world war two? i don't know, maybe i'm exaggerating a bit, but if one man's veiw of being perfect wuz blonds and blue eyes, would half the world already be dead? veiws on life are all different according to the way you were raised up, it takes a mere mind to think of that. what is different is the way that you life out the way you were raised. yeah. different? not too different. there are times in your life when you are ashamed of the person you are, but then after those times, there comes great joy and pride. i don't know....that's just what happens with meh....maybe different with you. wo bu zhi dao ba. yeah yeah.

hm....sunday skool today, they talk about well.....forgiveness. till this time, i have always thought that i was very fogiving. and GOD says that you shall forgive others. if you do not forgive, then you shall not be forgiven or whatnot. hm. i do not know. but the main fact is, forgiving is not sooo hard, it's the forgetting part that's harder. yeah, i say i've forgiven but i'm still bitter everytime that memory arises in my head. yeah, that is not true forgiveness. yeah. it bugs meh to read my own thoughts, knowing that most of them are complaints of what i had done or haddn't done. life is a tormentor to the tormented. but everyone could see that. hm. what you do not wish to see or hear, you will not hear or see. what you are willing to accept will be accepted. only great despair comes when you accept too much or accept too lil. but is there really a middle to accepting? hm. for a 16 year old, maybe it's to simple to think like this or maybe it's already way too muchie. either way, my thoughts are as of that for now. i do think a lot more...my problem......i don't really care to think n e more. missie you all tons peeps...l8z...