'm staring at the face of tomorrow. i don't know why i see this face, but i do. i see, someone smiling at me. i don't know. i've never seen this person in my life, but all i see in my head is this at the present moment. this is not kool. is this a dejavu? args. hm...well going downtown tom...hehehe=>:D:P yayay!!! it's all good. so very tired. nothing else to do. i don't really mind. i haveta still buy gifts for people. considering that one is having a birthday coming up, and the other....well just say is another birthday. i don't know, but some how, i'm really sick of the way i'm living. i procrastinate as muchie as possible. args. this christmas i must work. through all the plans i've made, i haveta make time for work. you know what the sad part is about all this? the one christmas break that i have stuff planned to be done, i actually like haveta go do skoolwork. oh wellz. sighs sighs. can't wait till tom doe, going shopping. hehehe=>:D:P well i don't know...going to meet up with like matt, hm....is that wise? erg.....i suppose it's not sumthing bad. hm. lately i've been sick witha a sore throat and like high fevers, this is not kool, but i will sooo be going tom. sighs sighs. args....why do random people always call me buddy?!?!? args args...... this is soo unkool

i do not know what to wear for tomorrow!!! this is soo evil!!! i've never ran outta ideas in looking decent before. i don't know what to wear. should i be comfortable and warm or should i look good and be a lil chilly? args. i have no clue. or i could simply just wear what i wore before. hm. darn stupid damn shoes. args args. hm. i'm sick and tired of hearing all these people talk about, what's the deal??? oh wellz. hehehe=>:D:P meeting new people, hey....they can be my friends! awesome!!! hehehe=>:D:P fantastic! hehehe=>:D:P i like meeting new people. it's soo fun. i sound like a tard....args.....but that's not my intention....grrr

there's not much to say.

well i've been thinking as usual again.......when someone says that they've never used someone, they have become a liar and like a user. it's all sooo fake. time and time again, i come to think about it....if i consciously think of the things i've done.....well consciously i am not using the person, but if you were looking behind the motive, it was kinda because of my own laziness. does that not put it in the term of using someone? i don't know. sighs sighs.

people say i think tooo much about everything. even things that don't bug me in my life just yet, but i still fret. but whateva. i have no clue. sighs sighs. i'm very sick and i'm very tired of hearing about all these people. gossip is in the air. is not every season supposed to be warm at heart? many people don't understand that christmas is not the only time of the year where you are supposed to love and show affection to everyone. what you show and feel towards everyone should be every time of the year, not just during the christmas season. args.