i rarely ever have the time to update my blog anymore. and yes, i've been stressing sooo bad. i've had two breakdowns just last week. i feel sooo incompetent. i feel sooo unworthy. i feel like such and idiot. sighs sighs. but then again, there is more than one person that feels the same way i do. but when things go bad they always cause a domino affect. sighs. my church is falling apart again. sighs sighs. i've been crying almost day and night now. and people think i'm stupid for crying because it's just stress. sighs sighs. but if you know me, that's what always happens to me because i just breakdown. i can't handle stress very well any more. i know that tears don't make any problems better. but as what others say, tears only describes how much a toil the problem is causing in you emotionally. sighs sighs. people think i'm the happiest girl because i'm always smiling. but the truth is, it's natural for me to smile. sighs sighs. i really miss the way i used to be. keke^^ it's been like one year, 11 days and 3 hours and 47 mins that i've been singo. keke^^ by valentine's i hate to be singo, but when valentine's day passes, i'm feeling alrights again. keke^^ but everything goes wrong in the month of valentine's sighs sighs. there's just sooo much that people don't understand. people don't understand how happy i want to be and only strive to be. but then again, does that all matter? it's not how you want to be, but rather how you are now.

alot of people going through hard times. but then again. it has alot to do with skool. i'm fading back in the background. i like to talk, but no one hears me anyways. should i bother to speak? sighs sighs.

life is a survival of the fittest.....it really is....but to be fit or are fit is not for anyone to judge. you have no right. plus....no one is perfect. the only thing you can say is if you are fit for the current situation. life is all about the situations. so therefore...if a=b=c....then life=situation=if fit for life, it means to be good at current/present situations. therefore....you maybe fit for one battle, but winning certain battles doesn't mean you are good for everything.