unless i marry soon....i won't ever leave here.....but do i really wanna leave? so i wanna leave canada and come back later? i don't belong here cause everyone says i'm too chinesie....and if i go back...i know i am too white...what the hell?!?!? a rgs args.......i don't belong n e more....

args...what will i do??? how can anyone help me? so i see....i am chronically depressed....args....or maybe it's just that i am a thinker that thinks about everything and everyone and nothing all at thes same time. it's frustrating. it's always about me me and me......why am i sooo selfish? args.....i haven't posted a happy thought for a long long time.....wow...sighs sighs.....i mean...i've had happy times....but most others....i'm notthat happy...sighs sighs....