well i was reading one of those boooks on psychology as i normally do...since my interest is only in psychology or at least how one's mind begins to think. i think it is interesting...but you may not. but anyways....one thing really affected me when i came to reading this little line that was only about a 4 worded sentence. it goes like this, "apthy results to nothing." and to that i add this....nothing results from apathy. yes....many say that i am apathetic.....but yet i am more sensetive than most. weird aye?

the past is what defines us as being us.....but it's how we live to what affected us in the past that really counts. so rather shall i say it is the way we live because of the past that defines us. it is unimportant of what happened in the past, but how you reacted and are reacting to it that matters. but saying it that way still makes the past important doesn't it? i don't know how to make the past sound unimportant....but maybe it's more like the past is important...it's just a matter of if you dwell on it or not.

oh...on the topic of the past...great topic....the sermon was about the past too. and i started to cry....it was like practically talking to me for some reason. sighs sighs. i can't really remember how he said it...but he said something that went like this. the past shouldn't hinders you as a christian. the little gap that the past has created was meant to be there to be filled with the love a GOD. that emptiness is important. you yearn for love after hardships....it's normal....but the love of GOD is and will and should be what fills that yearning.