hm.....see.......thanx.....that is such an encouragement for me to hear.  keke^^  i suppose i will be upset all overagain for a lil while after this week.  but who said i can't enjoy it while it lasts.  hm.  exams are coming up.  and i'm grateful that my cloud of darkness has been lifted in my time of when i need to feel the most peace.  summer skool exam is coming up.  i'm glad for others prayers.  sincerely i am very glad. 

even if you can no longer sway my thoughts it doesn't mean that your thoughts don't mean n e thing to me.  it really makes me happy to think that no matter how dark i get, you stay by me even when you can't help.  sighs sighs.  i've become more of a recluse.  and i know this. 

unpopular to common belief, i do not need a boy to fill my heart.  GOD is supposed to be able to fill this gap that i feel.  and when GOD doesn't.....i shouldn't be running to a person i feel should be my soul mate.  it would be a great thought to have someone....but it doesn't mean that i should.  there are many times in my life that i know that if i do not try now......i would never.  but maybe my time isn't here yet. 

i do not want someone just to be my rebound.....i want someone that will spend the rest of their life for me.  i know that most people my age are unwilling to concieve of such a thought.....but i am committed at this age....so therefore.....there are many others that are just as committed.  sighs sighs....

till the day that GOD will give me the perfect guy for me......i will wait patiently and try loving others as much as i possibly can.  i pray that i will have the strength from GOD when i seem to be out of it.  I pray that i will still be able to love even when this world seems to have soo little of it.  i will work on my patience with everyone.....beginning with those that are the closest to me....and i pray with all my heart that i will succeed and not fall down just because i feel like i have no strength.