Falling ill

hm....i know that saying i am falling ill is grammatically incorrect. i am becoming sick is the right term. but it felt good to type something wrong as my title. just sounds better. keke^^

well it's true. i'm becoming sick right before school starts. sighs sighs. well i have like a driving test with my driving instructor on like this coming thursday. he's always said i drive like crap. sighs sighs. i know i am not going to pass. he doesn't think i look in my mirrors, he says i check my blind spot badly, he says i can't turn properly. he shoots up my whole confidence about wanting to drive. an my daddy always says i can do it.......why does the driving instructor say i can't? sighs....everyone says driving's sooo easy, why is it sooo hard for me? he really thinks i'm unable to listen to instructions or sumthing. sighs sighs. it's true, i can't....because i'm not focused on him, i don't listen to what he says to me. i just don't like my driving instructor. sighs sighs. it's not my fault i can't understand left and right. honestly, when he tells me turn right, my instinct is the right, but yet i flash my left blinkers and i start turning left. then he gets all pissed off at me. sighs sighs. and then he starts yelling at me, and i just feel like i want to cry all the time when i drive with him. sighs sighs. i mean, if i really said this to my parents, my mommy would like make him go out of business because he makes me feel like crap.

when i drive crapilly, my instructor says i need more practice. he starts making it out like it's my fault that i don't drive enough. yeah, i do drive, i drive every weekend with my daddy. and i'm perfectly fine when i am with him. i make no mistakes. he just makes me feel stupid and i hate him, even though he's a nice guy. he is like, you should drive more. your parents should take you to go driving more often. oh yeah, in hell that i can. i can't....my parents don't own a driving academy with their own car so that they can drive where ever and whenever they want. my parents have to work. when he says that to me, i just feel like not driving so i loose more of my skills just in spite of the man.

sighs......why can't i drive? why is driving sooo hard for me? why why why???

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