when my sista wakes up.....i'll be walking to the gym....don't even know why i'm even bothering to walk with her when i can walk just as much alone.

meh....i'm a girl...and they rather me be safe and angry rather than to never see me again. but meh, i love my family. even though at times i never feel like doing anything with them, it's not that i don't love them. i mean, they are the only family i have, if i didn't love them, that just wouldn't be right. hm. meh.

i've been thinking again.......see....love is a general broad term. if anything......love is just a generalization. each type of love is one in the same. i mean...it is one big title with little branches in them. but what makes you treat every different branch of love differently? meh. i don't think you should, but alot of others think it's best if you do. but by treating people different because you love them differently, doesn't that just mean your playing somewhat of favouritisms? i've always been confused about that. i mean, GOD is love, and the only thing that makes us different from him is because well, we ain't perfect, we sinned. but the thing is, we are supposed to strive to become more like JESUS, more like GOD. therefore, if we strive to be more like them, should we not therefore become more loving? i mean, if you look in the bible, GOD is many things, but without love, he would be not a one of those title. Shepherd- caring loving person who takes care of his sheep. Savior- a person who loved sooo much that he was willing to die for someone so unworthy. Father- someone who will take care of you because he loves you much. i mean, of course there are some that i can't even translate how it's loving, like names such as rock, peace, righteousness, light, shield, stone, hiding place, so on and so forth. but if i were to thinking about ways all these objects could be love in the sense of GOD, it would work. but let's not go twisting the words of the bible. it's not meant for that.

but even if still, why does this world struggle with love to begin with? it is as if the world cannot understand anything of love. is it because love is like light. those that can see it either run away not understanding it or keep it because they want and need it? me, i do not know. i may be wrong. but i can only try to understand. even though there are many things that are much further beyond my comprehension i can only try. not that i should be trying, but i try none the less. it's weird how i tick. it's just the person i am.