Feeling sick

hm....i feel sick quite often. something that i ate just doesn't agree with me. sighs sighs.

oh wellz.

keke^^:D:P see i really don't understand, the small person has always treated me well. i have no idea......i don't know....is he still using me again? sighs sighs...i hope he isn't....

but then people like that.... they can hurt me soo easily because i trust them tooo muchie.

but as it goes....i'd rather trust easily than to trust no one. that's just me, that's just the way i tick. keke^^:D:P

i don't know....every time i've talked to lil short small person....whenever i needed something....he's been like a trusted friends and always helps me out. sighs sighs. someone using me wouldn't do everything to help me be happy would they? is the scheme sooo deep that he is trying for me to trust him completely and get burned in the process?!?!?

i hope he ain't trying that again.....

i suppose when we ended everything, what he said was true.

"i can't take this anymore. you are too nice to me. you care tooo muchie about me. i hope you can forgive me. it's not that i didn't love you, i just can't anymore. i hope we can and will remain as friends la." at the time, i just thought he meant that i was treating him tooo well...i thought he meant that he didn't deserve me treating him sooo well. i just thought it was becuase i annoyed him sooo much with my life that was what he couldn't take....but now....i think i understand. even someone that has done the cruelest and vilest crimes feels something of self remorse. someone can feel when someone genuinely cares. i suppose that's what he meant.....everyone knows the true intentions behind their actions. he couldn't tolerate himself/ his conscience when it came to me. he couldn't look me in the eye and pretend he wasn't doing something wrong. and see.......all my problems are solved by love....seee......love solve most problems....and when it came to me.....it has solved many except one of my problems.