changing

blah.....

in my eyes....i still don't think you care.....or you care in a preverted sense that makes no sense.

blah.....and so yes....i'm immature because i'm not like you. maybe i don't want to be like you.

to forget the things that make up me is to kill me......

i'm angry and dissappointed, but at what.....i don't know.

blah.....

emotions and knowledge of an emotion is different. you can't expect the world to be like you. because knowledge of an emtion is greater than the emtion its self does not make emotions not important.

my perspective of the world won't change. to be optimistic is not to be insensitive. and you'd say that's in your nature. blah.

angry and resentful. don't talk to me, don't message me, don't call me, don't remember that i exsist.

people get sick of complaints then don't care about them...just listen and then ignore them. i can handle with the ignoring, i can't handle the trying to change me into a "better" person part. maybe i'm not ready and by saying it like that to me isn't the way for it to work. you can't whack someone over and over until you get you way. it doesn't work that way. i know you are concerned with the better of me, but you must learn to project yourself better. by causing indignation within the person you are trying to help does not work.

i'd be lying when i say i don't care. i'd be lying if i said i really hate you. i'd be lying if i said i don't want to change.

selfishness...what the fuck is that?!?! everyone is selfish and there is no such thing as being less selfish.

you want the better of me.....it's not to whack me the way you did. sometimes a hit with reality works, sometimes...it doesn't. what worked once doesn't work all the time.

if you are sick of my complaints....just walk away from me.