sleep

well last night i didn't sleep tooo well. had the most unpleasant dreams. but now, i can't even remember what it was now. i just know that it was shit and i woke up having puffy eyes and shit. well i know what i must do these days. i just lack the motivation to continue. it's sad. but meh. i'll work on the motivation part. i gotsta pass my courses. since i failed a test. so yeah. >.<

i study so hard, but yet i still fail?!?! what the hell is up with that?!?!

well yesterday was one of the best calc tests i ever had i believe. i hope i don't end up failing. i always have sooo much confidence going in and then i notice that i've failed. sad ain't it?

blah...stupid dream sux.....made me cry.....and i don't even remember it now. what the hell is up with that?!?!

think i'm falling ill again. stupid germs and bacteria and my lack of sleep. well i did sleep like 7 hours. it's not that bad.

yes, i don't have a time to take my grad photo. sux sooo bad. i'm supposed to stay after school to get it taken. what the bullshit is all that about? holy crap, i swear alot now. what's up with all the aggression and anger?!?! hm. this has got to stop. this world is ugly, but by turing myself into someone hideous doesn't better this world n e bit. it's rather falling into conformity and making everything look worst. i think i'm dealing with all this emotional stree alot better than the previous times around. blah. if people don't understand, then well, i'm not gonna try to explain cause people either want to understand or not. my problems are MY problems and talking about them, it doesn't always work. but rather, i get people mad at me when i tell them everything that's on my mind. it's alrights, i understand.

whether or not it's a phase of thinking, it can't be rushed. nothing in life is better rushed. but nothing in life is better ignored either. but there's nothing i can do. all i end up doing is crying about situations. plus, GOD never puts me under n e thing that i can't stand up to. so i just can't let my emotions take the best control of me. keke^^