sleeping

okie now.....most of my holiday will be consumed of me sleeping on my bed in my newly designed and fixed room. oh how fun. i finally won't be ashamed to invite people over and see my room. i mean...how messy can an by small ass like 8 by 11 feet room get? actually....i really shouldn't be asking myself that. seriously....i'll amazy myself. i have way too many books. sighs sighs. my bookshelf that's in my room doesn't even fit all the books that i have and i haveta like restack my books with front and back piles.

looking at my small collection of books, i feel like a nerd. sighs sighs.

single and free. said i wouldn't feel the loneliness of it this christmas, i lied. or maybe it's cause i feel sick and everything is starting to weigh down on me again. sighs sighs.

no worries....i'm only 17, still many more years to come i hope. hm...

on a happy note. there are only like what? 3 more days till christmass!!!! yeah yeah yeah. hm....does n e one wanna bring sabby some chicken oodle soup for her to feel better? cause i really dont' feel like eating muchie solid stuff. just wanna go to bed and dream of my stuffed animal world where everything seems soo happy and everyone else is smiling sooo happily....gonna go to bed....getting tired. maybe it's the drugs or the effect of warm milk. this i will never know.