artistic ability

muhahaha. isn't it a great turn on to have someone that in artistically inclined? muhaha. i think it totally is. *drools"

whether it be that he is a musician, an artist, or a designer of sorts...it's just sucha turn on. XPXP well. hm....that's just me. but it happens that all the people i've dated were not artistically talented...but they were all business oreiented. sad? yeah, it's true:P don't know what got me thinking about all this stuff, but i'm thinking about it and posting about it. if you don't wanna read this stuff...then don'tXPXP

it's one of those things that people would tell me to shut up about because they ahve no interest about knowing this kind of stuff. but whatever. hahaha.

this is my blog, and i get to post whatever i want. it's the only place i'm not afraid of what i say and what i do. i mean, there are those precautions because youdon't wanna piss off everyone in the world, but yeah. if i stay to the guideline of the things and thoughts in my head...everything will be fine.

gonna go take a shower soon. sighs....want youth group again. but no one invites me to n e and it's awkward to join out of no where knowing no one. but the chances of me not fitting in somewhere is slim to nill these days.

even though i've learnt to open up, i'm still that very shy person. even though through intent, i try to look tough, on the inside, i'm nothing but mush. even though i cry, some tears can be tears of joy and satisfaction. even though i smile, not all of them are genuine. even though at times i act like i hate you, but deep down inside, i really do love you and want nothing but the best for you.

sighs....*dreary look into the distance*