funny thinking

muhahaha...been thinking for a while...it's rather funny i suppose...muhahaha....but it's funny none the less.

all my guy friends have those same characteristics that i find sooo funnay.

well...maybe if all my friends were lump summed, they'd practically all be the same and all the diff.....but meh....

all my friends are brutally honest and truthful. they try to sugar coat the truth about me, but yet it always leaves a sour/bitter taste in the mouth. but i wouldn't want them n e other way.

all my friends will always bring a smile to my face. this is probably because they'd rather see a happy me than all my tears, sadness, pain, and depression. everyone is the same whether a friend or not. would you ask me what was wrong if you didn't know me and you saw me crying? i hope you will do that to some stranger the next time you see a tear stricken face. please, think of all the pain you've gone through...did you not want to share? whether or not you know them, just go up to them and ask them what's wrong....it may brighten up their day....be a friend to a stranger.

not all, but majority of my friends are anime obsessed....yeah....weird...how i end up finding all the anime obsessed people. oh wellz.... it's something to fill their time i suppose...

muhahaha. i don't know...can't categorize all my friends into categories....but then again... where do i fit in with all of them....i kinda don't fit in n e where.

i am just there being me. the way i am loved the best....being me. but how have i lived my life? as a child...i hated myself...i hated everything about me....but with maturity....i find...why shall i be like everyone else? why should i ask for others to love me? if they don't love me, they have thier own reasons. maybe it's their own fault, or maybe we were never compatible to be friends at all.

love and respect are things that can never be demanded. if they were, it is only out of bitterness and spite that we follow and obey. humans, by nature, are mutinous to leaders, order, rules and rulers. by nature, we want to be our own rulers. by nature, we don't want to follow orders. by nature, we are not disciplined. by nature, we are chaotic. but i don't think everyone shares my views. but....those are my views. my view of the human race is very dark...very black. but why do i try to be sympathetic to a race of people that think i'm less than the dust in the air? why do i care so much for others when i am less than nothing in the eyes of others?

suppose questions like that about myself can't be answered by n e one except myself.... wha...wo hun chi guai de....=.=