hahah

and so....i'm traditional. and so i have traditional morals. and so i try to be as traditional as i want.

and so....i'm one of the most traditional chinese people most of my friends know. wanna know why? because all my life i have hated myself just the way i was....and now, i wouldn't want to be n e other way. the further people in school pushed me away, the more i clung to traditional roles and values.

the further my own race pushed me away, the further in i went into being a person of my culture. the only unsuccessful business is that i can't read and write chinese. rather sad. sighs sighs. not that i'm totally illiterate....i'm like 85% illiterate...sighs sighs. sad...yeah...i know.

black is my favourite colour for clothes. why? don't know...but psychologist and sociologist say that most times, people wear black because they want to be unnoticed. they just want to be who they are... where they are....they want to be seen by certain people and avoid as many looks as much as possible. those that wear black on a regular occasion are normally the people who are "isolated" or isolating themeselves.
^ in a sense...that is all true...for me n e ways. but then again...i just look best in black....but people say i look cute in orange...muhahah. if you see....most of my clothes are black and orange...doesn't that remind you of an occasion in october ma?!?! muhahah.

well yeah.....the further you push me away...the closer i want to be. but to be close, it is not always physically, emotionally or mentally being close. being close is just a state that one can achieve.