on happier matters

oh yes oh yes....

happier matters.

well let's start with waking up. today, i woke up happily. fixed my bed, made my own lunch, boiled two kettle's of water. picked up matt to go to school. as usual, he needed me to wait...if he wants me to pick him up at 8...he can just take the bus....seriously....because there starts to get alot of cars after 8. and i hate that.

but n e ways...

first period= food and nutrition...bs class as usual. don't even remember what we did
second period= english. thought all period. stared off in space most of the time.
third period= lunch...went out with ben and matt to swiss chalet...holy crappers....55.49....muhahaha...but they had a good time...so it's all good. hahaha.it was from the convo in this period that has gotten me a little down. but at the present moment, i truly still don't know what's wrong with me. probably hormones=.= X'(
fourth period= completely late for next period class. muhahaha. mr. rennie could have given me a 0. but i'm not normally late...and something compelled him to be nice to me. after that...everything went down hill from there.

at 2:30ish...i was home....the boys were supposed to come over....i waited...i played a half hour of flute...since ben said he hadda pick up something...so okie...i thought 30 mins is alright to wait...then 45 mins comes....they don't show...no phone call....started to get peeved...but whatever.....tried to stay calm....so i put on the movie, "the madallion" on hoping that they will cut me short from finishing the movie. but...the movie ended...my daddy cooked din din. and not a trace of human exsistance...they didn't call...they didn't message....nothing....and when i got online.....ben said he was coming....at this time...it was 5 sumthing...really close to 6.....i was sooo pissed off......luckily, my daddy was home...if he wasn't....i would have yelled at them when they came in at the door. but what kept going on in my head was....in my anger, do not sin, in my anger do not sin. this is a bible scripture that i have learnt as a child. and what i do with this is i repeat as many times in my head till i get fed up with the scripture...and then i start counting and then praying. it calms me down alot....

they stayed till about 7ish...even though my daddy wasn't willing to cook for them, i was willing to cook for them, but none of them wanted to eat my cooking. so.....didn't end up cooking n e thing in the end. hahaha.

soo...all in a day's work.....was truly happy...then by mid day...my climax (no, don't think in horny terms, think in terms of how a book has the highest plotline here)then late afternoon.....it became low point.....then by 8ish....the lowest point...and now....after talking to tons of people....everything is starting to be alrights....