can't believe

still in shock over the whole situation. sticks and stones may break bones, but names can't hurt me. wow.....that's a saying i used to live behind as a kid...but it's not true. physically, sticks and stones can really hurt. but physically pain can heal easy....sometimes. and well...names do emotional damage. i think saying sticks and stones may break bones, but names can't hurt me is only a consolation for those that are always made fun of.

sighs sighs. i can not tolerate any one calling me a bitch. people don't call me whore, unless it's a joke and not in some condescending tone. what the heck? args.....what the hell.

everyone wants the best for their friends. feelings aren't weakness. but feelings are only perversed in today's society.

i am just in shock. utter shock. i am probably just tired. wow.....i am mad at him....grrrrr.......what a bastard child. but yet i will still be his friend even though he seems like a bastard child for even wanting to cheat.

you want to know why i'm more built than most girls? well it's cause i have always found the need to be stronger than most girls. i don't want to be fragile. i mean, it's ironic in a way because physically i may be strong, emotionally, i am kinda weak. i am a tad tooo sensitive at times.

11 hours till going to vals for movie night!!!!! i wonder if i will have plans before going to vals. hm. well i still kinda need to talkie to him because now i am confused=.=

i'm listening to an old song that says this. i don't need love. what is it? don't blame me for being single and more clear headed. what i don't get will leave a shadow for the rest of my life. i dunno....that's not what i'm feeling...but i just thought i'd like to share that lyric.... do you think it's true? relationships leave you not in clear minds? well i know my answer is kind yes...it's more like when you were in a relationship leaves you hurting and the hurt blinds you. but meh....that's just me...

sighs sighs.....i will be giving jean a hug on sunday. sighs sighs. i am sucha meanie=.= sighs sighs. i am sooo unsensitive to her situation=.= sighs sighs....