what can i say? when i need rest because my body can't take all this n e more, my parents start yelling. dey dun let meh have rest....don't they understand that i have not been sleeping at nites??? do they not hear meh tossing and turning??? or when i am asleep....that i scream and i cry??? do they not notice???

they say i'm cold.....or i'm just "cool" they say i'm hopeless or have a lack of hopes.....they say that i give the impression that the whole world owes meh sumthing.....are they wrong???

am i cold??? i always thought i wuz compassionate and kind.......they say i'm hopeless....that i must disagree.....i just can't smile because i ain't happy on the inside, dat dun make meh hopeless. they say i give an impression that the whole world owes meh sumthing...maybe dat is my outlook of lyphe.....dat what comes around goes around.

of mice and men, da very ending.....harsh reality meet a lil compassion.....where's my compassion in lyphe??? where's what i deserve??? reality is harsh, u never get what u suppose u deserve....becuase if you really think about it.....u deserve nothing....no matta how good a person you claim to be.....truth is...deep down inside...u don't think of how corrupted you are and how quote in quote evil you are.

i suppose i give the impression dat the whole world owes meh sumthing cause well....i'm unhappy all da time......da same thing my family pisses meh off is da same thing why i can't tolerate my friends.....da only diff is dat i haveta tolerate my family cause dey live with meh day in and day out....i have no choice but to give em my love and respects.....
dey dun understand what type of person i am....dey do not understand dat i don't think like a typical person.....
i don't want to even say what i know most people would say.....all dey've told meh so far is u haveta live in da shoes of others to actually know how it is to live lyphe.....what da heck is all dat supposed to mean???
am i not living??? just cause i'm not enjoying dun mean i ain't living....yes....not living to da max of full potential, but it dun mean dat i ain't living...

i can feel da wind above meh....i can feel the earth below meh......what more can someone want?
i think i live a simple live....not too much money, but not too lilmoney dat i haveta stress....
grrr.....
well i dunno....meh feeling kinda semi lost......grrrrr