dunno wuz wrong, but i seem to like to think. i seem to have memories that never seem to subside, but yet i do not allow those memories to conquer over the being of which i am. it's funny how things work out. yeah, it still pains me to see things which can no longer be mine. maybe i'm just foolish, wanting something i cannot have, but the LORD said to not covet. in a sense, everyone is greedy, i've finally learnt the meaning of the saying, "you do not ever know what you have till finally, u loose it." some things you loose cannot be found. some things you want, u cannot have. by loosing something, you should be proud to have had it, you should be thankful that you had it, you should be thankful that you no longer have it. it's hard to come by the same thing twice, and if you are destined to meet it again, then it was meant to be. i really believe in fate, i believe in destiny. you can ask me why i'm so cruel as a christian to believe in fate, but the true fact is, there is a destiny, there is a fate, especially for christians. this is just the way i see it okay? you can ask more if i am not clear enough.

this is what i mean when everyone has a destiny and there is fate. to me, fate is just an outcome of destiny, but maybe it's different for everyone. here, GOD has a plan for everyone. this plan for every single person is what i call destiny. for example, it is fate when two people are destined for each other, their paths were meant to be intertwined. in this path, GOD has set out every choice that you will make, hoping that you will make the better choice, the more correct choice, but he knows you well. the greatest power GOD gave man was the power of choice; this choice comes great responsibilities. as a christian, our fate will be going to heaven, and all those who are with the devil will go to the eternal flames of hell. a plan is simply a plan, but being lived out by each individual is what i call destiny. i can be wrong, but these are just my opinions.

don't i sound like a stupid little sixteen year old now? well no one's stupid because a person calls another person stupid and that other person calls the person who called him stupid, stupid bak. life is a cycle. it is said, "what goes around comes around." there is an extention to that phrase and it goes like this, "...and if someone has got bitten in the ass, don't worry, u'll be bitten too." yes, that's all the thoughts i have for only sleeping about 7 hours. yes. don't worry, i'm still healthy, i just had to finish up my ping ying thing for the music we were going to sing on the 29th.