i do not need to know who exactly reads my toughts. i don't wanna know who does read it. you might ask why, but maybe sometimes it's better to not know than to know. not all thoughts should be posted, but i post most of mine up anyways. well there are still thoughts that you have to keep inside. that's just what privacy and personal stuff is. while reading these thoughts, it can only give you half of image of who i am. u have never met me to know meh for yourself. but if you have met me, then maybe you do.

my thoughts portray an image of a side that i rarely show. yeah, maybe in person i display that i am sad or mad, but rarely to beyond the point that i go insane. maybe i'm calmer when people are around. maybe i need that physical support that people so often think i'm strong enought without. GOD should be enough to satisfy my every need, my every request. not eveything shall go my way. i supoose that's just how things work, u have to be satisfied with one then another. but am i satisfied with myself? maybe that's the hardest thing to be satisfied about. only you and GOD can actually know who you truly are. since you know yourself so well, it's hard not to find your faults. knowing your faults sumtimes inflicts pain on self. maybe i'm wrong, but in order not to feel disatisfied with self, u really must trust GOD, and even then, u might still be unsatisfied. one must accept everything for just the way it is, down to the basics. for example, every different sort of tree has a name and classification, but really, what is a name for tree? a name is just a name. giving something a name does not mean n e thing different, it will always still be a tree, one that has bark, cork, and oils or saps. so basically, what is sabina? sabina, is a name. it is a name for a gurl. a gurl is part of the human species. so that tells you alot. every human is different, yet every human has the same natural instincts. how and where they were raised just changes the abilities of how someone adapts to things around it. that's basically it. that's all my thoughts for this morning. i don't want to kill myself over because of my thought. well yes yes, i'm going now.....i'll write more later.