entries soo short, maybe it's better this way.....so then u can't know meh as well as u want to. sighs sighs. some days, i feel as if i should just never come bad, but i just find this pointless, u will always need shelter and protection, it's just in our nature. the words to dat bedingfield song is very appropriate for for the feelings that i almost always feel. "i don't wanna run away, but i can't take it, i don't understand."

to keep you happy, i don't haveta be happy, just show a happy face to you. how difficult is that? i say, not very difficult at all. but now adays, the difficulty of the matter goes beyond meh, i cannot look happy simply because my unhappiness is just too great to bear now days. one may wish to have days like old, but i just wish dat sum days should have never came. maybe i cause more trouble for myself....maybe i do....maybe it's supposed to be dat way.

everything is just a state of mind. well u mite not understand where i'm coming from or where i'm going to with this thought, but i dun intend to tell you what and why and where. some things just ain't meant to be understood by everyone.

well dat's all i have for the nite.....

ping an.....