hahhaa=>:D i don't talk as much ne more. i don't like groups. i just like when people when dey talk to ya face to face. two on two basically is what i'm trying to say. i don't get really good conversations while i'm in groups n e more. i just totally blank out and not listen. maybe dat's just like dat in skool. maybe on reason why i don't focus is because i really ain't listening all that much. yes, i have fun courses that really help meh have fun, but really, they are useles. i'm gonna take grade 12 english next semester, please pray for me. pray that GOD will give me the strenght to carry on and not be too stressed. thanx people. those that i want to to talk to, are those that i do not see, but yet those people do not want to talk to me n e more. those that i've established a great relationship with over the summer has faded. yes, i suppose some friendships are only to last for a certain amount of time. not all friendships are meant to last. this i see is the only way it can go, in lyphe you can only make more and more. people really do think i'm sentimental and opinionated. not a good mix or combination, but too bad, that's just the way i am. but just saying that's the way i am pisses me off. it's as if i'm using an excuse just to do the things i do. i hate it when people do that, at least i noe i try to change myself because i noe that i'm just using it as an excuse.

skool really took away my loneliness, but yet at the same time i have never felt more lonely. as i've said last night, you will never feel more lonely then when u are with a group, but u feel neglected. hahaha=>:d i suppose i should have been used to this feeling of rejection, since i've been living with it all my lyphe. but no one is made to feel loneliness. at least i noe i have friends, even if they don't like all my opinions, at least they stick by meh no matta what. all i can do is smile one smile. and hope that lasts foreva. yeah, i wore a skirt to skool today, everyone wuz shocked so badly. is it my fault that i choose not to wear like fancy clothes to skool? well people at skool, i'm giving ya a holla, get used to it! i am that gurl that is hidden in the corner's where no one sees. i am that gurl who cries every nite just because she seems to not be able to do n e thing right. but at the same time, i've lived like this all my lyphe, no big difference, just that i'm getting older now and everything just seems to not be as easy as it used to be.

i really don't want university to come. i would no longer be able to live the way i live now. i really miss all of ya. i just wanna give ya'll a big kiss and a big hug. i don't know. when i feel like doing this kinda stuff, no one is around me, maybe i should just get one big teddy bear. hehehe=.:D yes, i should just invest in one, but yet i have one. it's like about the size of my upper body. yupz yupz. hehehe=>:d i am that gurly gurl that doesn't seem to be a girly gurl in front of people. but everyone has a nature to look good for sumthing or someone. in this sense, i'm trying to look for myself. hahaha=>:D when winter comes, i will look like a mess, that's just me. unless u want to buy a bit of my winter wardrobe with me.