hm.....what i see is not what you always get. i have no clue. i'm tired. very tired. i'm actually exhausted. i never feel like eating any more. and i think my body is starting to slowly starve because i do not give my body enough minerals. sighs sighs. i miss you boi. sighs sighs. yet i still can not describe or understand or figure out what is inside my head. sighs sighs. i miss you....but i don't even know who i'm saying it to. i could be saying this to brian, and then again, i know i am in ways.....or it could be jenny, but she's sooo close she's less than five minutes away. sighs sighs. whateva. no big problems. hehehe=>:D:P and then there's all those friends that used to be my best friend. hm....

i miss everyone that's in my lyphe. i miss every one that used to be in my lyphe, i miss those that i will meet in my lyphe. sighs sighs.

everyone tells meh to forget. they always tell meh to forget. but the truth is, hm....the past always repeats itself. yeah, some people are fortunate to never come across racism at young ages. like meh, yeah, i went through that crap alot when i was young. it wasn't very pleasant. i suppose that's what makes me see things so realistically now. yeah, maybe it's an excuse, but maybe that is the reason why i take most things for more than face value. sighs sighs.