i had the most weirdest dream last night. and don't even ask me what it was. it was just desturbing, and i will not picture what i saw in my sleep. you may say that i lust, and therefore i see, but is that subconscious or consciously? sighs sighs. can i be forgiven? but i cannot only because i do not fogive self. yet i ask for forgiveness and do what i ask to be forgiven of over and over again. why can human errors not change? i mean, they can, but it takes more time. as a person, a human expects change tooo rapidly. one wants to much and become unsatisfied with what they have received. did you purposely leave the receipt in their? hm. there are 4 types of people when it comes to gifts.

1) they have no heart into it, and they only buy what they want thinking that you would like the gift too
2) they put thought into the gift buying, but have no heart and end up buying what they like knowing that the other person will like it too
3) the one that spends much time in searching for the right gift, finding the right amount to save up for it and buying it knowing that it's what they want and it's for sure
4) the last type, what people would call cheap gifts, but is made with the most amount of time and heart and effort, something that is made to the most perfect way that human hands can get an object to be.

now basically, this also breaks into how much a person spends when it comes to buying gifts. person three would most likely spend the most and person number four would spend the less. but the fact is, besides really close friends and family, rarely does one spend so much time in shopping for the item the person knows they want. hm. let's just say, it's normally a gift that was asked for more than was just given. so unless person number one and two were rich, it is most likely that a gift is not past 100 mark at our age. but this really doesn't matter, you prolly don't want people to give you gifts that you know they only bought for themselves. i mean, a gift is a gift, but not all gifts should be taken. it's the moral of the concept, and i have many. i mean, at the time, i can be quite ignorant, i've accepted many of these types of gifts, where people only buy for themselves.....i not caring what it was at the time accepted because i thought it came from the bottom of their hearts. turning my head to think, i know what type of person i am. i'm down right cheap when it comes to giving gifts to people. i don't like shopping for others, but i don't like to go shopping just for myself. so in the time of a shopping spree, i spend one or two items for others looking like a big person, while the reason behind the spending is only because i don't want to buy for myself. i once said that i'd give my world away, and i've come to notice that it is for selfish reasons that i give it away.