taking a break from reading...args args...tired....well i actually have a christmas wish list now....it's not things that i need, it's just things that i like to look at or that i like to eat or something that i would like to wear.

so far on my count....i want
a digital camera, but that is only in my dreams....why not just use film?
an mp3 player, but why not just listen to the radio?
guylian chocolates...don't ask....i just like the white milk chocolate mixing into the dark milk chocolate.... or maybe lindor or ferro roche chocolates??? hm....how yummy....
egh....there's this scarf that i really want.....it's blue white and pink....hehehehe....
i want my lost pencil case bak, but it's not like people in my skool noe what it feels to loose something with sentimental value because most people in my skool is rich....
i want to spend a day with all my friends, my skool friends with my church friends and the friend/friends that i don't see to often.
i want my sister to be home to eat christmas din din...but i know that one will come true..she's coming home next week...muhahaha
hehehe....and so far.....i want a big big hug from everyone of my friends....so that's bout it...hehehehe

now on the count...what i must return for gifts this christmas....
i need to buy a gift for that secret santa thingy....i have...
i needed to buy a teddy bear for brian...hey, which i did very well....
i still need to buy a gift for matt....him and his stupid head phones..args...why am i sooo picky??? args args.....
i still need to knit bessie's scarf...grrr...
oh yes, i still have to start joy's scarf...luckily i have two days before christmas day i believe...args args.....
and in return....i will give hugs to everyone this christmas...or at least try.....cause if you know meh....hugs just ain't my thing...especially when it comes to hugging a girl...i feel sooo awkward...hehehe=>:D:P
and that's about it....if any of you want to buy me something...please tell me, because so far i'm down for the count money wise...and it's the heart that counts...but i don't have many people to buy for....halfly cause i ain't rich.

oh yes.....christmas is a far days away, but i still know why people like christmas time. as i've said before, they feel more love in the air during this season than most. yeah, have you ever noticed that the so called winter months or winter solstice has most of the holidays due with affection? i mean, in the summer, you don't have something like valentine's day or whatever. also at the same time, you see, life has a funny way of reminding things to you, during your hardest times, you first think of all the bad, but as you fall more into the pit, all you long for is to feel better, the way before you fell. that just goes for most people, those that continually see the darkness in the pit see nothing but the darkness. those that are faithful will know that there are better times ahead even if the present times look grim.....what life doesn't give you, you have to make for yourself.

yeah, i'll admit this, all my life i have been spoiled. all my life i have been this way, philosophical......args.....i've been reading soo much that my typing seems sooo wrong.......oh wellz.....