well bak to the fact that i'm philosophical....even my sister says that. she's like, all my life, i have never met another person so young in age, but has philosophy that only a person who's walked the earth could say. where have you been these 16 years? how old are you really? but wisdom only comes with fear. what you do not acknowledge is what you do not see, and if i must fear to acknowledge, then so be it....it's the only way i will see.

if all your life, you call enjoying living, then what do you call suffering? is not suffering when you feel something, whereas feeling happy just gives you a bubbling feeling at the most? i mean, life is like a scale.....you can't have too much of one thing.....and as you can observe through everything...when you have tooo much of something....there is either no room to put it, or your body repells the extra that it has. having just enuff is sometimes better....

sighs, have i lost another friend? or has just stress got him annoyed? is this void i'm feeling going to last forever? will i loose another friend due to the way i am, friendly? will i loose another friend because i want to be happy? am i paranoid with loosing friends? am i paranoid with the constant reminder of my past? is it all my fault? args. whenever something goes wrong...this feeling that i have, it just can't be stopped. everything seems to be my fault. everything seems to be my problem. everything just seems to be what i inflict upon myself. i mean, pain that i feel is pain that i have created for myself. for example, if someone was beating me up, physically, it may really well hurt, but seriously, pain physically doesn't really kill unless it's internal anyways....i mean.....you cannot see your brain, your heart, your lungs, your emotions......and all these things, if damaged may never be the same. may never heal properly. and only when these are damaged are you seriously incapable. args...something's burning.....args.....fire in the house!!! fire in the house!!!! args args!!!!!! or maybe it's just me and my crazy thoughts.

philosophical.....wow.....am i what people say i? or is it just merely because i choose to think alot? what makes good philosophy is the knowledge that it applies it can and may applie in times of trouble and times of joy.....it's what makes someone well-rounded. args args.