it's not a beautiful day, but it doesn't mean i can't and shouldn't enjoy it. sighs....i hate romance movies...args args.... sighs sighs. having no romance in my life is making me upset. on the inside, i can't help but to want and miss i suppose. sighs sighs. i don't think i can handle this much anymore. sighs sighs. pms? or maybe i am sincerely depressed? sighs sighs. jean was right. it's such a sad thought knowing that she was right. i mean i love her, but sighs, that thought was sooo true. and i suppose i miss someone i shouldn';t for the exact same reason. i told matt that i would go, but i still don't know if i should. my thoughts are sooo random. sighs sighs. i really don't know if i can handle all these thoughts. my stomache is in total pain...should have not drank soo much milk! args args. man, sooo lactose intolerant. oh yes....i have to go now....sighs sighs....