then that really means i have never really given up. maybe it's because i'm looking forward to the future....even though i know it's not quite possible. but if i do, then i'm breaking all my rules. but who sets my rules? i do. oh wellz. sighs sighs. i'm cold...so very very cold......sighs sighs.....i want....i don't want.....i wish......but i should...sighs sighs.......to be or not to be....that is the question.........but will anyone love me for just who i am and not the way i look?