time does not solve problems. it is you who takes the time to solve your own problems. it is you who chooses to take more time and delay for the answer to your problems. time does not halt anything. comfort is for you to find someone who is willing to give you it. it is your mission for comfort if you want it from people. there are those that are always willing to give you their love, but you must find them.

not caring can take you many places. most of all, not caring takes you to a place where everything feels weird. you feel excluded from places. you hate to be loved and loved to be loved all at the same time. you learn to cope with yourself, and in doing that, you loose yourself in the moment and question why after. you will never be despicable unless GOD looks away from you. But GOD only looks away when you carry way too much sin.

friends are for you to forgive and realize who is who. you cannot run away from those that care. those that did care when you ran away will still care for you.

big brother is a great title to carry. firstly, big brother means supporter. with the support you give confidence. confidence to make them do better or just even aim higher than ever. big brother can mean protector. protecting them and giving them insights to what might actually and can go wrong. your experience means the world to them.

relations are what you make out of them. you can choose to stop being friends if you truly insist. you can make yourself fell unwelcomed by those you thought you "loved" but really, that doesn't mean that you have to. just because everyone else is in a relationship, it doesn't mean you have to be. and if you are in one now, and a problem arises, don't give up, because really....make you can make things work out if it was meant to be.

baptism is not for everyone. baptism is for all those who have GOD's calling. maybe you are feeling stress b/c of the fact that you really want to and really don't want to all at the same time. that's how i felt. and really, i'm somewhat ashamed to call myself christian at times. it feels like i fail GOD constantly, and the truth is, i do, but i am very slowly being picked off my feet and being lifted up. your prayers are and always will be in my heart always.....