sighs. not all people that are philosophical regret the past my friend. they may wish they did something differently, but as that does not mean that it is regretting, as long as they acknowledge that they live in today, not yesterday. sighs sighs. no matter how much i try to help.....it's not like it's doing any good. you don't talk to me about your problems...and i go out running to you with anything and try to talk just because i want to know what's going on in your life. but you don't tell me. but i simply refuse the fact that i must leave. anger is within all of us. no matter how long we haven't written or said anything with much anger doesn't mean that it isn't in us. you despise humans for a great reason. one that is honorable....but you see, you are christian, and if GOD can love something so despicable as a human, you can too. hating is easy, to love is much harder. frustration in any manner, shape, or form is not healthy, but it's not like i can do anything about it. as a human, i will say this, i will allow myself to be called a pathetic creature, i have become pathetic. many generations of sin have created a creature called SABINA. this creature is me. another human to be hated in your line of vision. i am hurt by your frustration, but it's not like you care because you hate pathetic creatures called humans. sighs. if you view love as something bad, i cannot convince you...nor will i try to convince you. i shall leave forever then. that's the beauty of love. humans don't deserve it, but no matter how hard we hide from love, GOD will be there, with open arms. you can hate him....but it would not be possible for him to hate you. you can hate everyone....but don't expect everyone to hate you......for one thing.....i know i cannot...no matter how hurt and how many tears you made me cry, i just won't hate you.