sighs....i can't help but to think that everything's my fault. but then i always think it is. sighs sighs. jean is still right. i only think i need a guy cause having someone round keeps me happy. and when i do get into arguments they are soo minor that i admit that i am wrong knowing i was. sighs. and when i tell val, she doesn't understand.....and rache....well she doesn't either. when i tell them why i need a guy or why my constant feeling of loneliness....it's rather disturbing how they answer me i suppose. i believe that those that understand my situation will still always be those that know me best....being jean and bri....

sighs sighs. i suppose if i had a guy....the person wouldn't stay with me long.....they'd prolly just say that i am too needy. sighs sighs. oh wellz. it's not my fault now that i feel lonely. it's just a normal human feeling. sighs sighs. oh wellz.

i suppose i help people because i know that i don't want people to feel like i do constantly. sighs sighs. no one thinks i'm important....and they only think of me when they are in trouble. this i know because it runs in the family. it's because i'm loyal. it's because i'm honest. and it's because i try to figure out thing before i do many things. sighs sighs. i wish my friends would just call me once in a while. i mean val calls me and it just so happens that everytime she calls i'm out driving. sighs sighs. but even with val....i can't bring myself to pour out my soul. i can't seem to pour out my soul to anyone. sighs sighs. people using gps system to stalk people.....yeah... stalk me....and i'll show you sumthing you never knew about me!!!