this dream happened on sunday night.....and after this....i was unable to fall back asleep because it disturbed me...because i remember the first time i had this dream....i wet the bed....and was crying when i woke up.....i was six at the time

if life is meant to be said as a journey, tough and confusing...then i suppose this is what the whole thing symbolized then.

in this time....i was running this race with one guy.....my best guy friend at skool....matt, a few other random people that i never saw in my life....but too distinct in facial features to be made up.....i am bound to meet them one of these days...because that is what always happens to me. don't know why i had him in this dream.....but maybe it was because we went shopping on that friday....but i have no clue. altogether this is my dream.

at first we were in a wide open field...we were looking for something....someone found it....so we ran........but i was made to carry it. then we came to a corn feild.....in a maze......the object....to go to the center...and every four wing of the maze to find five different objects.....we found it.....and yet again i was made to carry the objects.....the next scene....we were running through hot melting sand.....beautiful at first sight.....nightmare to walk on. here....we were to dive through the sand and find something underneath....sighs....my fear....water...but altogether.....it was only the first hot layer that really hurt.....getting past first jumping in was the hardest....it was refreshingly cold water underneath....we found it quick...and yet also made to carry this too. all in all....everything was getting heavier and heavier...harder and harder to carry....but i still carried with poise and grace. with mighty effort....but with great poise and much grace. i have no idea why my dream always ends here....but it does.....and everytime...i cry in my dream. the last scene before i wake up. i run with loads and loads to carry....am of course slower...but only about few seconds slower...and the last one is to go on the elevator to a certain floor and finish this entire mission. but i never complete it. my team ditches me....and i am left alone......not knowing what floor to go to....not knowing what level to finish at.....and since i do not know.....i step into the elevator....other people come and go......enter and then leave....but me.....i am lost and confused....and i am unable to move....i am frozen to the little corner seat where i am familiar with. i am angry that everyone has left me alone. i am angry and sad that no one told me where to go. i am frustrated that no one else helps me....and i wake up to darkness....everytime...i wake up right before the sun comes up around 4 or 6.....