the truth is....maybe i never let anything in my heart to begin with. maybe everything is my fault in the end. it is i who trained my brain to tick in a certain way.....then it is my fault and solely my fault because i react a certain way.....

it is solely my fault that i break down and fall.
it is solely my fault that i cry because i am unable to bear it.
it is solely my fault that people treat me the way they do.
it is solely my fault that i am unable to train myself to have more patience.
it is solely my fault that all i do is blame myself.
it is solely my fault that i remain in this chronic depression because i am unable to fully dig myself out.
it is my fault that my mind is empty.