wow....blogger fixed it up again....wow.....new improved look.... hate it.  i don't like change....that is maybe why i don't like many things or people because they changed.  my pc still is infected....but meh.....i don't know.  why does fobby ken want me to go to playdium with him sooo badly?  hm.  i'd rather not think about it.  i don't really want to go to playdium la.  i don't want to spend money...but maybe i'll spend the bus money.  so yeah.  i have no clue la. 
 
bri if you read this.....will you come to playdium with me?  even if you aren't going to play......i just don't want to be alone with a guy i rarely know....and a person i had a crush on before....sighs.  maybe that's what it is and always will be....a crush. 
 
something that'll make me feel upset because it ain't going to work.  i know it's not going to work. plus....i know it wouldn't work.  i know i don't need a guy to get self-satisfaction either.  so yeah.  
 
i see that i become very upset all the time because i feel empty inside.  and that's because of inactivity.  i think going to the gym even when i don't want to work out gives me satisfaction and i become happier.  people say that's because my body creates andrenaline when you do any form of exercise.  i suppose it's true in my case.  i dont' get much of a thrill and therefore everything seems to be upsetting sometimes.  going shopping now days doesn't even give me much enjoyment.  so yeah....sighs sighs...