talking to yanny. telling her how i feel sooo shitty and all. and she says that it's prolly because i never really got over my ex. and half of that is because i haven't found someone new to replace that void i feel.

sighs. but it's not my time to look for a soul-mate. someone that can fill the void, isn't my decision on choosing. it's not my job. my job now is to be a good student.

i feel royally kicked in the ass by my own emotions. sighs sighs.

bri, i think your right. i do torment myself. i do it as if it is a punishment on myself. sighs sighs.

sighs sighs. i wish i was blind! i wish all i would worry about would be what i wish i could see. sighs sighs.
i wish i was deaf, so i wouldn't hear anything and be affected. and naturally, if i was deaf, i wouldn't be able to talk.

sighs sighs. falling into depression, i can feel it in my bones. it's the road i'm heading down now. i just hope that when i wake up i won't feel sooo shitty tomorrow.